Writing
I was made to feel bad about writing. So I stopped for a while.
I have been told by someone who does not like me that I paint myself as a victim in my writing. I don't mean to. I just mean to write.
But I listened to that voice and I stopped writing.
But I feel like writing. I really want to write things down.
I don't write with the intention of making myself seem like a victim. I don't write to make people think I am some sort of flawless target. I am not. I am flawed. I don't make good choices sometimes. I am never as good a person as I want to be.
But I write because life happens, and sometimes life is really hard, and rather than drinking or crawling under covers and not coming out of bed, I write feelings into words.
I believe writing is better than self-destructing.
I know that everything I go through, other people have gone through. I am not unique. My life is not more hard than other people's. My life is hard in the same way that other people's lives are hard, and in different ways than some other people's lives are hard. But this is my life, and rather than falling to pieces, I am just trying to write all the little pieces down.
Your writing is incredible. You put many of us in touch with our own feelings and emotions. It is ok to be vulnerable. It is ok to be open and honest. You have inspired me since the first day I stumbled upon your writing. So please, don't stop. Don't ever stop.
ReplyDeleteMuch Love to you. You are more powerful than you know.
couple notes: 1) you are perfectly imperfect as we all are. 2) You are unique. It's true that many may be suffering in similar circumstances but your situation is unique ... special!
ReplyDeleteI too find writing cathartic and it is also a skill that has never been appreciated. I stopped, feeling it must be of no value. Lastly, you sound like YOU ARE a victim not just somebody that comes off like a victim. Alas, I do not know you, but it does sound incredibly familiar.
You do not come across as painting yourself as a victim.
ReplyDeleteI wonder why that person tried to tear you down?
The feelings and words and things have to go somewhere. Writing lets them out. You have the skill to shape them into something more evocative than a bland report; there is no shame in that.
You are allowed to write about how outside things have affected your inside. It's a good and positive thing, even when the words and events aren't/weren't.
Good friend is a writer, & I told him years ago - be you. Belt it out to the back row. You're awesome.
ReplyDeleteSure, maybe you're a little too jazzy some sets or like Bowie or Prince and not every one of your experiments really cuts through to people. Be you anyway. The guy at this table near the stage will applaud, & keep listening.
I rather enjoy your writing.
ReplyDeletePeople write for different reasons. I ran an online writer's group years ago and I tried to impress this upon those snobbish professionals amongst us amateurs.
I think you have a book in you, Kiddo. Maybe not yet, but you'll know when it's time to write it.
not sure how I ended up here. Notes: You are an amazing writer. Writers write. They can't not. Criticism is kindling to a writer's fire.
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